Lifestyle

as i sit here at 4:46 in the morning drinking a Dr. Pepper eating mac & cheese and a star crunch smoking my 4th cigarette of the hour the 19th of the day and i slept most of the day away Im Pissed!!!, because i only have 1 cigarette left and for some reason people think im better because i dont do drug or drink anymore. that makes sense ??? i think i was better off when i was using a 8 ball and 20 beers a day well at least i felt better well until the next day but then i could start all over again. now i feel everything but nothing theres nothing more depressing then taking a "how long will you live" test and it turn out to be till my late 50's. WOW im at the halfway point of my life....and then you think to yourself DAMN 50's thats to long....I guess what im saying is Pick you Lifestyle, ive picked my.,.,.,